Probably

So if you are a long time reader you know I occasionally post poetry that I write. I don't know if it any good or not I just put it up there and then move on with my life. I don't even post all the poetry I write, I don't have a solid reasoning for why I choose the ones that I do.

Phrases pop into my head and I write them down and wait until I can write the rest of the poem that goes along with that phrase. They also don't all relate to my life, some do and some don't. The other thing I do is that I always date them, at least when I start them.

The following one I started 1.12.09 and finished 9.2.09. Nine full months before I remembered/found this in one of my numerous notebooks. As far as if this poem relates to me or some random version of myself, I'll let you decide. (I have no clue why I felt the need for this introduction - well whatever).

Probably

Probably should have kissed you
Should have taken that chance
Risked just a little
Instead I played it safe

Never was one to jump in
Always needed to test the water first
Like to know the odds before I place my bet
Never was one to jump in
Always waiting for the right moment
A perfect situation

Probably should have kissed you
Should have taken that chance
Risked just a little
Instead I played it safe

Always wanted everything perfectly in place
Sunrise, Sunset
A perfect time of day
The stars never seemed to line up
Wanted the feeling to be just right
Committed as much as me
Never felt you like I thought I should

Probably should have kissed you
Should have taken that chance
Risked just a little
Instead I played it safe

Now you're gone
I'm trying to forget
Those missed opportunities
Stolen glances I should have read better
Moments that are lost don't matter
Guess this is goodbye for now
Next time I won't think so much

Probably should have kissed you
Should have taken that chance
(Found out what'd happen)
Risked just a little
Instead I played it safe

Now I live in the past
Missed moments
Present regrets

Probably should have kissed you


Well hope that wasn't too tortuous.