Probably

So if you are a long time reader you know I occasionally post poetry that I write. I don't know if it any good or not I just put it up there and then move on with my life. I don't even post all the poetry I write, I don't have a solid reasoning for why I choose the ones that I do.

Phrases pop into my head and I write them down and wait until I can write the rest of the poem that goes along with that phrase. They also don't all relate to my life, some do and some don't. The other thing I do is that I always date them, at least when I start them.

The following one I started 1.12.09 and finished 9.2.09. Nine full months before I remembered/found this in one of my numerous notebooks. As far as if this poem relates to me or some random version of myself, I'll let you decide. (I have no clue why I felt the need for this introduction - well whatever).

Probably

Probably should have kissed you
Should have taken that chance
Risked just a little
Instead I played it safe

Never was one to jump in
Always needed to test the water first
Like to know the odds before I place my bet
Never was one to jump in
Always waiting for the right moment
A perfect situation

Probably should have kissed you
Should have taken that chance
Risked just a little
Instead I played it safe

Always wanted everything perfectly in place
Sunrise, Sunset
A perfect time of day
The stars never seemed to line up
Wanted the feeling to be just right
Committed as much as me
Never felt you like I thought I should

Probably should have kissed you
Should have taken that chance
Risked just a little
Instead I played it safe

Now you're gone
I'm trying to forget
Those missed opportunities
Stolen glances I should have read better
Moments that are lost don't matter
Guess this is goodbye for now
Next time I won't think so much

Probably should have kissed you
Should have taken that chance
(Found out what'd happen)
Risked just a little
Instead I played it safe

Now I live in the past
Missed moments
Present regrets

Probably should have kissed you


Well hope that wasn't too tortuous.

Unsupportable

So I have a confession, I like Rob Thomas, I like Matchbox 20. There I said it. I however do not like this.

I mean honestly what is that picture? It makes me think that any money I pay for this album will go directly to his heroin habit and I don't support drugs.

It that Really Necessary?

I was listening to the radio this morning and it made me think. I heard this clip; "really I was just looking for an excuse to break up with him." There are 2 things about this that bother me. Her boy friend ended up cheating on her with her best friend; first of all you are staying with a guy who would cheat on you. Why? Seems like reason enough to me. Also she has a crappy best friend. However why does someone need a reason to break up? So three things.

I don't mean break up because things are going great and you are super in love with the person. I mean the, I'm just not feeling this anymore, the thrill is gone (this does not apply to people who are married, you are committed in my mind - there was a point when you in love so work on things). I am talking about dating someone. I get this idea in theory, no one wants to be the jerk that dates people and then breaks up with them for no explainable reason. And it would totally suck to be dumped like that. However if the person you are dating can't explain why they don't want to be with you they just know that they don't, wouldn't you rather be dumped rather than marry someone who isn't a hundred percent crazy about you? (And I mean normal healthy crazy, not I want to skin you and wear you as a coat crazy.)

I think in the short term it would suck hard core to be dumped like this but in the long run...
so much better.

The question remains; how do you break up with someone when all you really want to say is - Hey, I like you as a person and you are great, I just don't want to hook up with you anymore, cool? Lame but true.

Unacceptable

The other day I was shopping at the mall and I saw a shoe that I believe to be an affront to women's feet everywhere. No, it was not the crocs, those are affront to every one's feet, men women, children and my eyes.

Here they are:

I know you are probably thinking; But Dagny they sparkle there are sequins, they look fun and kicky, I want them! Well I wold ask you what the hell was on the toe of your shoes. Is that a bow some lopped sequined fabric? What is it? Why does it not lay flat?

You probably can't tell how awful they really are, so if you want a closer look go to Nordstrom.com and look at Kate Spade's women's shoes and zoom in. There are more touches that make the shoes not cute, the brown piping, but mainly it is just that thing sitting on top of where the toes are.

I may have offend some of you think these shoes are great, and I'm not sorry. They are just not cute. In the interest of full disclosure I have to admit that I don't really like Kate Spade to begin with. I know she has bright colors and whatnot, but she is so basic and plain. I know that is kind of the point but I just can't get behind that with my money.

And I know that I really dislike these shoes.

Time for a Change?

After having candy (twizzler nibs, peanut butter m&m's, regular m&m's and conversation hearts) popcorn with real butter for dinner tonight I think it might be time for me to eat better.

Here is an example of a typical menu for me:

Breakfast - Greek yogurt, banana, honey and grape nuts mixed together ( I know sounds good right) Okay this is true maybe 3 days a week on the other's I am usually hitting up Burger King for a croussanwich.

Lunch - Either Arby's, Taco Bell or Burger King.


Dinner - I don't usually eat dinner. I do have some snacks around 5; chips, fruit snacks, and oreo's.

So there you go, I eat what a 12 year old boy dreams of being allowed to. Well, I am missing the pepperoni pizza.


So I guess it is time that I start eating like a grown up. Right?

FYI

If you forgot/misplace your wallet you cannot pay with a check at Taco Bell.

And people in line behind you will look at you like a crazy person.

Thought you'd like to know.

She's Watching You

I have this friend and she is pretty freaking hilarious and a little nuts but that is probably why i like her. She also apparently fancies herself a spy. So we are out to dinner a few nights ago and she tells me this fantastic story about how crazy she is. I love it so I have to share it.

She is working on a project with some co-workers and one of them insists that he has to leave at 5:30 he cannot stay later. This strikes her as odd since he always stays at the office late. Although she doesn't dwell to much on it until she goes to leave.

In the parking lot is another co-worker sitting on her phone in her car. I know doesn't sound like much of a crazy coincidence does it? As background story the female is married and recently promoted, she works under the guy who had to leave at 5:30. (Note from here on out they man will be referred to as 5:30 and the girl as Married - cause she is). Still my friend thought she has picked up some weird vibes between 5:30 and Married she doesn't think a lot about it until she notices the direction Married is headed out of the work parking lot.

What does my non-normal, non-sane friend do? She FOLLOWS Married. Yep, she follows her.

(Next step getting that camera for concrete evidence)

Apparently she, my friend know where 5:30 lives. And that is where Married is going. My friend already has an excuse in place in case Married questions her, she was just heading to her mom's house. Like my friend is the one with adultery problems, a cover story is just safer I guess.

Now you are probably thinking this is the end of the story, nope. She, my friend follows up the following by bringing up the exact same scenario she believes her co-workers to be engaged in as a story about a friend of hers. Just to gage Married and 5:30's reaction.

I love my crazy ass friends!

A Letter to the Girl Working at Noah's Bagels

Dear Blonde Chick with the Evening Eye Make-up,

I know you think you are pretty cool and cute. I'm not saying you aren't, I am saying this thought. You aren't fooling anyone. I know they are fake. And by they I mean your earrings.

I don't want to say never, but I am saying it. Those Chanel earrings are total knock offs. You were wearing a zip up fleece, it wasn't a Northface. There is no way you could afford those earrings.

So I have this question for you, why are you wearing earrings that are so obviously fake? You could have worn the standard cubic zirconium studs and I would never have noticed. Instead you had to flash that Chanel logo in my face. And make me want to write you this letter.

It isn't just you I would be annoyed with anyone wearing logo earrings. I honestly hate logo anything; bags, jewelry, pants, shoes. i just can't support it. I feel like it lacks creativity.

Anyway back to you. How do I know they are fake? Well aside from the non-name fleece there is the glaringly obvious fact that you are working at Noah's Bagels. It is possible you have a moneyed boyfriend, but wouldn't you parlay that into a Nordstrom career?

That's really all I have to say. Have a good shift, and keep it light on my cream cheese!

Your Friend,

Dagny

New Year New Attitude

There has been something that I have been noticing about people, they have really bad attitudes. I don't mean that they are rude or anything like that, though some are, I mean that people have this sense of entitlement. They think that if things don't go their way then they should just give up. Then they become a little bitter.

I'm not saying that I don't get a little bitter or that I don't want to give up. And yeah, everyday does seem like a battle some weeks. What am I supposed to do though, roll over and play dead? Let life kick me in the ass? You have to keep on keepin'.

Why do we give up so easily? Life isn't easy, life is hard. We can each make a choice though do we wallow in the suckiness? Or do we make the best of it? I say make the best of it no one really wants to be that crotchety old person with no one around and nothing nice to say. And that is where you are headed if you don't try to grab onto a little positivity.

I don't want to be all Sally Sunshine, and I definitely won't be all the time. So let's all just get over ourselves in 2010 and make the best of life. You aren't the only one with problems, so deal with it.