Friday, October 30, 2009

Buried Deep

This moment is temporary insanity
My enthusiasm is down, need to pick it up
Don't want you to think every minute is calamity
Can't let you see the real me

I want that dream;
The kids, the dog
That picket fence, manicured lawn
I know it's not right to use you like this
I need an out, I need a win
And you're a winner
help me out
Just this once
I'll learn to like you, learn to love you

This moment is temporary insanity
My enthusiasm is down, need to pick it up
Don't want you to think that every minute is calamity
Can't let you see the real me

Where's this desperation come from?
This need, this drive
I don't see you I see security
I see things, status
I see through you to that perfect life
It's not your fault
It's a lack in me
Somethings missing, at least i think it is

This moment is temporary insanity
My enthusiasm is down, need to pick it up
Don't want you to think that every minute is calamity
Can't let you see the real me

You're my shot out of this mess
My salvation
Don't know where these mercenary tendencies came from
There are here though and i can't shake them
I want to want you
More than the possibilities
More than for the monetary
But I don't

This moment is temporary insanity
My enthusiasm is down, need to pick it up
Don't want you to think every minute is calamity
Can't let you see the real me

Can you feel my desperation as I take your hand
Don't you sense my panic when you leave the room
You seem so complacent
My smile is over bright
I clasp I grab
needing you in my sights
You are my future
I've determined you are my out

This moment is temporary insanity
My enthusiasm is down need to pick it up
Don't want you to think every minute is calamity
Can't let you see the real me

Trying to collect myself
Bring it all together
Show the face you've been accustom to
The one you seem to like, to love
Only a brief flash of the real me
The one I keep hidden

My every moment is insanity
Faking my enthusiasm until it is real
Creating calamity in my every minute
The real me buried deep beneath this facade

2 comments:

Cody said...

This is some pretty emo poetry Dagny...

Ariel said...

every moment is insanity. word to that.

ps i decided we are now blogger friends :)